August 6, 2009
Pittsburgh
I just read the Pittsburgh killer’s blog — all of it. It’s indeed interesting to see the mind cycle of someone who has the potential to kill. I often suspect I know people who could and found eery similarities to his demeanor and those people. It’s easy not to think about.
According to his blog, it’s obvious that he tied his self worth to how much he was associated with woman. It makes me wonder how a women would handle his particular mind set. My initial thought is that surely women wouldn’t take the personal responsibility of killing others out of jealousy. I am more quick to think that men are more likely to have that sort of vengeful demeanor I think, but who knows. Maybe it’s unfair of me to think so. People that are unwell are unwell, period.
I often prefer to use what the majority of what people think or say and think about the exact opposite. What if he was just as much of a victim of those women? But he knew what he was doing, and it’s outrageous he considered himself a good person. That perhaps should draw the line for me and make me stop feeling sorry for him. I like to think murders are a victim, but trying to understand or empathize people like this maybe isn’t for me to make sense of. People like this are outside of the living world, so to speak — farther than I or other harmless people could ever be. It’s not my place nor my duty to feel sorry. My heart goes out to the families and friends of the women who died. RIP.
